I was looking at a dream.
This does not belong to my present self, nor does it belong to the old self, but "her".

She is very lonely.
Although surrounded by "love", I do not feel the slightest satisfaction.
To some, the gesture may seem arrogant and uncomfortably extravagant.
In this lower realm, how many people grew up without knowing "love" and then lost their lives. Maybe my hill self is one of them.
However, because she knows what "love" is better than anyone else, she harbors an emptiness that people who don't understand "love" will never understand.
Because you are not enveloped in “love,” you may long for “love.”
And because I was enveloped in "love", I was imprisoned by "love" and died in it again and again.
Which side is unluckier, I can't say.
If there is one thing that can be said, it is that, on the scale of eternity, even "love" can become a hell full of poison.

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In the memory, she is crying in the flower field.
Covering her face with her hands, large tears fell, and the fields of night-dyed red flowers seemed to turn into a sea of gold as she was immersed in sadness.
I can not find.
I can not find.
She sighed like that all the time.

Eventually... a woman appeared behind her.
This is a low dwarf.
At first, the somewhat competitive dwarf is surprised by her beauty and tears.
She got up immediately.
Did you see that? she said.
The tears disappeared and the pupils were stained silver.
Forget everything you've seen, she's about to "enchant".
Twitching, the dwarf staggered closer, then threw a violent punch just as she was about to give the order.

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It really is a beautiful hook, it even made me go "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!"
She fell to the ground with her chin being hit hard.
The dwarf caught it and the red petals flew towards the sky in an instant.
Looking at her rubbing her chin and rolling her eyes, the dwarf showed a ghostly look.
』Don't use any strange moves towards me! ! Be careful, I'll fly with you! ! 』
The dwarf who threw her into the air was very angry.
Although she was shaken when she was seen crying, the "charm" was a little late, but she managed to beat her up before she complied, which also showed that the dwarves were indeed very strong.

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She was stunned and said:
"I'm a goddess, huh?" The dwarf snorted.
』I don't care what you are!』

Since she was born, she had never worshiped any transcendent existence and immediately laughed when she heard the dwarf say this boldly.
And laugh out loud without hesitation.
She fell into the flower field again, curled up like a fetus, holding her stomach.
It wasn't intentional, but it was this dwarf who stole "her first time."
She became "the woman who hit her for the first time."
She couldn't stop laughing.
"I ask you, what is your name?" "
...Mia. 』

So she decided to ensnare this disgusting dwarf.
Dwarves were born in a mining area.
When she went there, the environment here was already very bad and the coal mines were almost gone.
All the men were expelled to work as miners, leaving only emaciated women and children in the village. To feed these people, the dwarf opened a tavern by herself - a canteen with just the name of a tavern.

I met her also because the dwarves were collecting food for this poor area at the time.
』Gods are not as important as eating! What I want is not some jewels, but ingredients that can fill my stomach!』

The dwarf knows better than anyone how painful hunger is. I also believe that hot meals are much more valuable than beautiful jewelry and beautiful goddesses.
It is impossible to have such a scene in the perfect heaven where hunger and poverty have no reason.

At the same time, she also thought: This is the essence of the lower realm.
It is precisely because of the imperfection that the "unknown" that even the gods cannot predict was born, and the existence of the dwarves in front of me was lifted.
And the representative of the "unknown" is the "hero".

Well, what I'm looking for, Ord was perhaps the "hero" himself, from then on, she started to think like that.
“Are you my hero Ord?”
'What are you talking about? Stupid goddess. 』
She gave an expectant look, but it could be said that the dwarf ignored it.

Many gods led by the great god tried everything to dominate her, but the hillbilly dwarves had no idea how valuable she was. I don't even pretend to understand. 
Perhaps it was because of the circumstances under which the two met, or perhaps because the dwarves were fearless. I think it must be both.

That's why she was able to treat her roughly and even mercilessly slap the ass of the Goddess of Beauty, who was in the right position and was like a treasure in the world.

No matter how the strong Familia looked, the dwarves would not change their attitude. Facing warriors much stronger than her, she still hasn't thrown away her pride of being a complete person. The people in this area were all attracted to her and huddled together, while she was cooking all the time. 

Even though she did not receive "Grace", she has a powerful soul that does not succumb to the power of the gods.
This dwarf is really very strange.
And meeting this dwarf made her feel a little redeemed.
『Mia, I saved your area on my own initiative. 』
『…』
『Not only did this give them a decent job, but it also made sure this area would never be deserted again. You don't have to cook for them, do you? 』
『…』

『Speaking of which, is there a goddess who is always hungry here? 』
『...You stupid goddess! 』
She really liked the dwarves and welcomed her into the family with a little force.
The dwarf probably also hated the fact that she was owed a favor for freeing her hometown, so she complained about being given the "favor." However, this is conditional. "Work with her until the debt is paid" "If there are hungry people like in my hometown, I will go there myself" 
"Moreover, to fulfill the dwarves' long-cherished desire and open a real tavern." This is the quid pro quo.
She accepted the concessions.
Furthermore, she said:
“Listen to me, Mia. I'm looking for my Ord.”
'I've heard you say that many times. Let's just say I'm not going to be that kind of thing and I'm not going to help her. ’

‘No problem, I thought you would say that. So I want you to sign a contract with me. ’
'A contract...? ’
‘After all, it’s you, if I do something that upsets you, you’ll punch me again, right? ’
‘…’
'As long as it's to get my Ord, I'll definitely do whatever it takes, I can be a fair saint or an ugly witch. ’
‘…’
‘So, Mia. Whether I become a good woman or a bad woman, don't come and get in my way, okay? ’
‘…’
‘I’m counting on you, Mia.”
...I know. " 』

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If there is anyone who can stop her from achieving her wish, it is the dwarf in front of her.
She had this premonition. So he first accepted the dwarves' conditions and then proposed a contract.
Surprisingly, the dwarf readily agreed.
Why is this? She thought so.

So I immediately thought 'Ah, that's it', expressing my understanding.
After all, the dwarves no longer want to see her cry like a miserable little girl - she took the dwarves and continued searching for her Ord.
She treasured the dwarves as she traveled through the netherworld, which was wider but narrower than the sky.

She decided in her heart that she would not use "charm" to confuse the dwarves.

Dwarf women are very noble. She obviously has no glory as an elf, and she is rude and violent, but her will is stronger than anyone else's. She holds dear the only dwarf who will stand up to her. Although she is much younger than her, she still admires the dwarf as her sister in her heart.
Then she discovered that even this strong dwarf, as long as she had a heart, would drive the dwarf crazy because of "beauty". If the dwarves also seek her "love", she will never be able to cheer herself up again.

The journey continued.

Unable to find her Ord, she slumped her shoulders in frustration several times, only the family that adored her grew stronger and stronger.
One day, she lost to the "worst and cruelest goddess" and was imprisoned in the labyrinthine city.
As she settles into the center of the world, she still searches for her Ord.

In the process, she introduced a wereboar.

From the island of ugly elves where white and black fought each other, two kings were freed.
She sold her body in the industrial city and obtained quadruplets of little humans.
In the abandoned world, I found two dependent kittens.
ME, Horn. Also, saved by her in the slums that winter.
By swearing allegiance to her, more and more warriors possess power.
But even so, she still couldn't find her Ord.

The dwarf also made a request to leave his side when the city's dark ages were about to fall.

From that day on, giving up her Ord, corrupted by the poison of boredom, she began to act.
So, she made friends.
There is another shelter.
The resignation to the fate that killed the goddess in her heart, everything she saw, and the poison of boredom were also neutralized.
She loves being a "girl" every day.
I don't know if she found out.
Although this is just a game, every day the "girl" replenishes the gold she has spilled, feeding herself.
It was the "girl" who allowed her to come close to her "expectation".
But... ahhh.
She got there again.

In this dreamed fantasy of the world, I arrived at the beautiful and lonely field of flowers.
I can't find it, I can't find it, she's still sighing like that.
Since that day, I have been crying.

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"Scream. scream.
Just because you're not by my side.
Garden of flowers, tears of red, gold in full bloom.
And let the invisible light guide you and me.

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Laugh. Laugh.
I believe in my heart that we will meet eventually. '
Somewhere the poem of tears sounded.
When her hero Ord finally appeared, she was still crying. 
And I can only stand outside and watch.
Who will save her.
Come help her.
I Horn then prayed.
However, no one looked for her.
She was the one who abandoned them.

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Sorry, Anya.

Sorry, Chloe.

Sorry, Lunor.

Sorry, Ryu.

Sorry... Mia.

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She cried and apologized.
I also apologize.
But she still couldn't hold back her tears.
The gold was still flowing and his body was gradually visibly melting.
I hugged her and said words she shouldn't have known how to say.

Come and stop me—
save me-

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